Sucked into a Vortex

As you sit in the chair and wait for the results your nervous, your life as you know it may change forever,  you want to know, but you don’t. And then you hear the words ‘I’m sorry but you have……….the words you didn’t want to hear, the words that will change your life forever. Time stands still, in that spilt second, your heart starts to beats loudly, so loudly that you can’t hear anything over the sound, they’re still talking but their words become muffled, it’s just you and your heart, your heart beating so loudly and the questions inside your head going round and round, the words, What, Why, How, When?
Being diagnosed with  a Life Changing condition feels like being sucked into a Vortex , a big whirling black dark Vortex, sucked away from the life you knew yesterday , last week, forever.Sucked away from your old life into a life of, well you just don’t know what lays ahead. Life as you know it changed forever. Everything out of your control, no control,whirling, lost, lonely.
You become a patient, the patient with….. you lose your identity, you are treated differntly, your lonely even though your surrounded by people. You just want to scream can’t you see ‘I’m Still Me’ I’m Still Me’….. please let me, be me.Being diagnosed with a Life Changing condition feels like